a love letter from me.

Dear world.
I want to be a better person. And i hope your thoughts about me will finally change. But it remains somehow the same. And please world. Accept be for who i am. peace from this tiny fragment of you, zaim.

One can pursue so much happiness but yet he will flee from it's own contentment. but why is that? I thought in this holy month, we all should be very happy and our life would be filled with joy despite the hunger and thirst we all must endure. But it contains far more hikmah than the obstacles itself.

Why are we so hard to find such happiness in a fantasy we create for what we don't know the existence while we are constantly in reality living in it????
Somehow it is hidden deep down our self, and waited to be found. But we keep on going and going without even glancing backward to find the cheer of our life is just waving behind us to be spotted. Hilarious how this can even occurs.

A story of a seeker.
People always seek something far more greater than what he can handle and yet he is carrying a load himself that he throws away accordingly to reduce his burden in finding his own fantasy. And at the end. he finds himself exhausted and tired of searching and he looks himself and he finds nothing. The load that he carries from the beginning became a burden to him. So he throws them away. The foods that keep him from hunger and tent that covers him when night falls down. The burning matches that warms him against the breeze wind of winter.
These tools are consider a burden for him in pursuing his own envisagement. How pitiful if we found our self in that situation.

The one we seek is untouchable, while the load we carry is forgotten. Then we find our self with nothing.

We alll have a goal that keeps us from falling. one can struggle so much for his loved ones because he sees his life only with her, and he finds joy only with her face.
Money can somehow be our final destination, it rends us more valuable in future life, it gives us pleasure and complete our lust.
But can we actually put our first priority of all to love our self above others. I know somehow it may occurs to you, that u will think that person over there wearing that tight cap is better than you. U regard him superior in all matters. And u condemn yourself for not being the same.
"This world is a wonder because all the differences that exist. " And u must think high of yourself.

Shit those people who pursue others while forgetting to pursue deep down himself. Your happiness only lies within you! Not from others u must seek. It all come back down to yourself. So for those people who are roughly eager enough to find a limitless happiness from other people. Search first within yourself. Once your can finally master the true self-loving and think highly of yourself. Then you can travel the world. And somehow you will smile.

A smile from me as a gratitude for who i am. And am proud to be who i am.Thank God for this wonderful person you create and I'll make a full use to it, until the day soul rips from my body, and i can no longer breath, and my heart stops beating and until the day i simply die :).